Monday, June 10, 2019

The art of not finishing what you started...

I am an expert in this field lol. Which is funny because I hate this on a smaller level. A book, a new recipe i'm trying out, a walk even. I'm all in. I can't stand the thought of a book being dog-eared and left on my bedside for a long time. But something that has big goals attached to it? You better believe I don't think twice about quitting. It's a habitual thing I'm not proud of, but can't seem to break. Can you relate?





I started this blog many many many years ago. It started out as a small hobby. Just a way to document our lives and that was before instagram and stories (wow, that made me sound old, ick). Once I started having miscarriage after miscarriage, it became a journal and way to help myself heal and grieve. After a while it evolved into a page I wanted to give value and share my life and my favorite things. I wanted this page to become something great. Something where women could go to see my life, find some new favorite product or a new recipe.  Someplace where they could leave feeling inspired or excited. So I sat down and wrote a plan of attack. I paid someone to give my page a new fresh look. I wrote down ideas of what I wanted to write, and put a hefty goal of 3 posts a week down. After I had a laid out plan, the next day I looked at it and got overwhelmed. I hadn't even started and already I felt behind on my schedule I made up in my own head, and decided it was concrete and not at all flexible. I put a few posts out, made some drafts that never got published to the site, and quit. The timeline I made for myself was too much and it wasn't fun for me. I LOVE blogging. I love reading blogs and i love creating them. But when I attach a timeline to it like it was my job, that's where I checked out. But the thought never occurred to me to rewrite my plan. To tweak it to fit ME. I just quit.





The same thing happened when I decided to try being an all in beachbody coach. I dove headfirst into it. Got neck deep into the trainings, wrote BIG goals for myself and committed many hours a day to it. And while I absolutely loved helping people with their health journeys, again, it was overwhelming. I planned my goals based on what others told me to do, and didn't customize the business to me. It tore me down and I got burnt out. Both these instances I was also a brand new mom and a full time nurse, and had curveballs thrown into my life along the way. It was a lot to take on. And while I could have stuck through it enough to keep enjoying it by readjusting my sails, I didn't, and kept full on with the original plans I set, not having the balls to admit I can't do it all.

Recently I got that itch to start blogging again. There's just something to planning a post, writing it out and hitting publish for the world to see, that I crave. I thought about that initial plan i set out, and got instantly scared. No way could I put out 2-3 posts a week.

But WHY does it have to be 2-3? Why can't it be one a week? Or even one every couple weeks? I am the author to my own life, and I decide how I want these chapter to go. So I told myself it was ok to say I put too much on my original plate. It's ok to readjust my sails, and it's more then OK to admit that I tend to shrivel up when I set big goals for myself that could change my life. But it's not OK for me to admit defeat and give up on something I actually love.
So when I thought of HOW I was going to get back into blogging and not quit it almost instantly, my health journey popped into my head and I thought a-ha! That's the answer.

My own health and fitness goals started almost 6 years ago after a lifetime of yo-yo dieting and exercise. Long story short, I had my second baby and was tired of how i felt and looked. But after years of this yo-yo lifestyle, I decided to change it up. I was 3 months postpartum and nursing full time, so I knew I had to really think about how I was going to do this to make it long term and to not lose my milk supply. So I took baby steps(see what I did there ?). I didn't go all in with exercise and nutrition like I normally would. I committed to an exercise program, but I gave myself grace throughout the entire program and modified A LOT. I slowly changed my eating habits. It was a very slow process and one that I wasn't used to. But it stuck. 6 years later I'm still obsessed with my own health and fitness journey, and it's a passion that I've come to love because I did it my own way.
So I decided it was ok to look at my blogging the same way. Baby steps. I rewrote my plan, and it's super simplified, but it's what works for me right now AND it keeps me excited to blog. I've come to realize after 30 something years on this planet, I need to do some things slow. While others need to go all in and thrive on that, I admit I don't. It's just one of those things that make me ME.

I'm telling this story to show the big picture. That not everyone works at the same pace. If you have goals, big or small, tweak the plan as many times as you need to succeed. Because we are all capable and deserving of the things that make us happy and fullfilled. And while this may seem like common knowledge, to some, they may need that reminder and that permission. And sometimes the simplest things that are right in front of us, we tend to look around it looking for a better answer. This is me slapping (nicely) you (and I) in the face saying to do things according to YOUR own pace.

And this is also my promise that my blogging will continue! Come back to talk all things momlife, food, fitness, lifestyle hacks, MANY product reviews, and an all around place to come and talk girl talk. I promise to not go anywhere ; )